When I Hurt

I don't know if I've used that as a title once before or not, but when I hurt I hurt alot and I just want to say, "Fuck it all."

Now, I know that isn't the most intelligent or creative thing I could say, but when I'm in pain, I really don't give a flying fuck what anyone thinks. I'm hurting. I'm cranky when I hurt. I may not always be cranky openly - sometimes I'm cranky on the inside. Like tonight when I had to work. I was cranky on the inside. The thoughts inside my head were mean. I didn't speak any of those thoughts, because they were irrational and not "ME".  However, when I'm hurting I do tend to drop the f-bomb a bit more.  Sometimes people will notice and they will say things like, "I didn't know you swore!"  Well, of COURSE I swear. It's just that USUALLY, I'm bigger than that little bomb of mine. USUALLY, I'm more creative. USUALLY, I'm more patient and can endure more.

But, not today. Today I hurt and I don't give a flying fuck what anyone thinks of me. I will be understanding with you - please be understanding towards me. Actually, today - pain day #3 - I don't care if you understand or not! LOL  USUALLY, I will ask for your patience and understanding, but not today.

I've been hurting for three days now.  I was medicated for the first two. Tonight, I'm not medicated because I had to drive. However, I will be going to bed soon and you can bet you sweet pjammas that I will have a medicated slumber tonight.