What I Eat Can Hurt Me...

Saturday we went to a Billy Graham music festival. Lots of great music - Skillet, The Afters, Lacey from Flyleaf and many others were there. We took a cooler for food on the way there and back - to eat in the car.  This is where my post title comes into play...

There are many g-free items that I can eat, some are alright to even eat cold.  But, I didn't have anything substantial to take along.  Sure, there are items like eggs, cold meats, certain corn based snacks, V-8 juice, fruits, veggies, etc., but I didn't want to eat cold eggs and ham all day and I'm allergic to most raw fruits and veggies.  So, I ate before I left and took g-free snacks and then ham sammies for the rest of the car full.  By the end of the day I was good and hungry - the food at the festival wasn't really g-free friendly and the lemon aide was $4.00/ea. 

I ended up eating a regular ham sammy.  Then the rest of our caravan went to McD's.... I was so hungry - I ate part of a Big Mac and some of my hubby's Cola... praying the whole time it wouldn't hurt for the next three days. I just got over a 9-day flare up. I really didn't want to go thru that again.  But, I ate the food I knew would hurt me anyway.  It was about this time when I wished for the days when I could make myself throw-up. Mentally, I felt so awful for putting that gluten back into my system - all I could think of was ways to make myself puke.  I didn't succeed and it all stayed in my stomach.  However, as soon as we got home I took everything I had in the cupboard and fridge to try to combat the pain I was expecting to hit me the next morning.

That worked out, albeit, slightly. I didn't have the pain, but every other problem was there. I'm okay with that. I'm trying so hard to get my intestines to heal and I know it can take months and months to do that, so I was totally kicking myself for eating the sandwich and McD's, but I was HUNGRY!  I can be so dumb...

So, today, I'm going to just take it easy on my intestines and ingest only liquids - chicken stock, colloidal silver, aloe vera juice, coconut water, kefir and water.