Doctoring

I had a doctor appointment this morning. I had lots of questions about fibromyalgia and sleeping.  He confirmed all of my concerns and told me not to worry.  Apparently, I have every trigger point and a high pain tolerance.  He gently scolded me for waiting to come in. I gently reminded him that I want to be as natural as possible.  I also said that I didn't want anything in my medical records yet for several reasons. One being that herbal remedies seem to help with muscle pain. Another reason being insurance.

When he mentioned pain tolerance levels and different meds to take. I said that none of the things I mentioned consistently keep me from working - that I can work thru/with the pain whether or not I take an herbal muscle relaxant(s) or not.  They certainly help at alleviating the pain though.  At this point he changed his mind on what to prescribe.

I have a problem staying asleep. Falling asleep is easy, staying there is another ballgame. He was going to give me an antidepressant - I'm not depressed. It's a mild antidepressant, but great for sleeping.  Then he changed his mind.  Let's try something else. The big question then was, when do I take it? Do I take it at 2 a.m. when I wake up? I don't need help falling asleep, just staying asleep. He suggested I try it AT bedtime for a week, to see if I stay asleep.

Then I asked if it will make me bloated or fat - no real answer. I should have asked if it would strain my kidneys.... I forgot that.

So, questions answered and maybe there will be a full 8 hours of sleep around the corner.  Wish me pleasant dreams.

Weather Front?

This card isn't my design, I saw it on
etsy - I think by a J. Cuthbertson.

The weather was pretty steady this past weekend. While Friday was fraught with waves, Saturday and Sunday were wonderful pain free days.

Today is another story. The forecast for tomorrow is 80% chance of a snow 'storm'. I wonder if this is the reason for the change in my pain.  I had a good night's rest both Sat. & Sun., but today I awoke with an achy right side of the whole length of my body. Honestly, head-to-toe I'm aching and I have no explanation as to why.

I'm told that's the deal with fibro - that there is no rhyme or reason to one's pain.  Is that what is going on with me?

Pain in Waves

My blogs are like oceans. I've said that before.  However, now I'm relating my body to an ocean also.  Some days I'm calm and serene. Other days the waves are loud and crashing; all consuming and hypnotizing; powerful surges from head-to-toe.  Like an upsurge or rise, pain comes to a crest.  Progressively swelling not only in size, but also intensity.  I am reminded by that sea shell to tread lightly through my pain... through my life.  Nothing matters unless it has to do with eternity. I tread lightly through my pain days. Eventually, calm will come again. The sun will come out as the fog clears.

When I'm in the throes of a flare up, it feels like it will never end. I know it will, but it's kinda overwhelming and sometimes I get scared while I'm in the middle of it all.

Not only do I feel waves of pain going from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet, but I also feel a nagging headache trying to get my attention.  I feel that I may be slipping into a weekend that will end up on the couch. Waves of pain are slowly growing in their intensity. I'm glad we got some movies!  One of them was the second half of the latest Dr. Who season! Yay!  The laundry is pretty much done, the house is pretty much clean, the dishes are done and this weekend we will use paper plates if I'm not up for anything.  I wonder if wine coolers will put me to sleep or aggravate my pain???  hmmm... Groceries are purchased and put away, so lunches won't be a problem. 

I guess I can just sit back and try to relax!  I wish I had a list of uplifting scriptures to go to when I'm in this mindset. I have a friend that can help with that - I'll send off an email to her straight away!  Then I should be all set when my hubby gets home!